Nursing school started on the 7th of July. Ever since attending the first day of class, I haven't had time to even sit, let alone write a blog. I am sure that I won't be able to get on here everyday, but I will try to do this at the end of every week. I will write about what ever comes to mind.
I was extremely nervous through this entire process for Nursing School. There was an application that was submitted to compete with the rest of the other applicants. This competitive process consisted of NLN test scores, 5-grades (Math, English, A&P 1, A&P 2, and Introduction to Psychology). After submission of the application, the top 30 students were sent letters for an interview. The interview was worth 25%. I will never forget the way that I felt during and after this interview. I just knew that I didn't do well, and waited with so much anxiety for the letter of rejection. I knew that I had worked so hard for this, and knew that I have what it takes to be a Nurse, but I was just unsure how much I showed this to the 3 interviewers. I'm happy to say that I received my letter of acceptance in May, and I was just ecstatic! What a blessing it is to finally be there. Now the anxiety began to get even worst because my worries had not stopped here. The fact that I found out that we were unexpectedly expecting baby # 8 in Feb. 2010, has now became a reality for me. I stayed in denial the entire time until this point. What am I going to do? "Lord I know that you didn't bring me this far to leave me" is what I believed. I FINALLY made my way to the Dr.'s and was torn between following through with this pregnancy because I was just not willing to prolong this dream anymore. My PCP did the physical that the school required, and he referred me to an excellent OBGYN. I felt a little relief after leaving the OBGYN's office. This was the first time that I've had a Dr. minister to me. He wanted me to know that what ever my choices and decisions were, he would help me through it from the beginning to the end, but that God didn't put me in this situation for me, and that it's His will for me to go through so that I may be that blessing unto the people of the future who will be in the same situation as I. Wow!!...We decided to go through and keep the baby, and I just put it ALL IN HIS HANDS! I was afraid to notify anyone at my school because I didn't feel the level of comfort with anyone just yet, and I was afraid to be dismissed from the program. I just had a lot of worries. I am happy to say that I prayed for this situation and that I am able to go through without being persecuted for my decisions.
Let the Nursing Classes begin!!.....SO far we've gone over 12 chapters, and our first test on ALL chapters is on Monday. I am a bit nervous about this because I am just not so sure HOW to study for 12 chapters in such short period of time. What I will do is go through each of the power points 2-3 times, and sit for my exam, praying that this is the right way. We've also had our first Lab class, and of course I LOVED IT. Even though we were just taking vitals signs. ALL of that is just up my alley. Next week is Lecture and Lab, and I will keep posted on the outcome.
I have also realized that I must find a positive outlet because I will not be able to socialize with my friends as I have in the past. My life is consumed with so many tasks, duties, and responsibilities. I have so many people expecting so much from me, and I cannot fail ANY of them. From my Husband to my Children to my School's Faculty. I've realized today that I cannot be there for my friends 100% as I have in the past. It will only bring me down and bring about disappointment to everyone. Sooooo on to the POSITIVITY!....I'm going to search on some positive outlets that are relaxing to my mind, spirit, and body, which in return will have an effect on my household because they won't have to feel my stress.
I am done for now, and I just want to thank Jesus for bringing me through this, and sticking with me to see me through it all. My God you are just ALMIGHTY!!! Thank you Lord!
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